If there was...

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If there was a light who could bring me out from everything negative even r34 i understand i suffer bigger pain but still i gotta say is that there's something that can protect me but i won't tell what is until you guys find out


They think they can ruin my dreams,hopes and happiness they will give up i still have my power to defeat them and No I'm not a traitor it's just you all my pony friends don't understand what pain i suffer and yes you can see it how does feels when you are in this pain....


After several years and months i frighted against depression and SUICIDE i managed to hold that and to not end my life this is truth and I'm not lying i have been suffering many pains than you guys yes i was


There's a still light for me to end this war.Don't ask me anything or i can get into worst Situation but still nice questions are still welcome.I'm still silent and remaining in shadows for Recovery i also Noticed Blue Lambda having same pain as me because he can understand my pain!


These bad images i want to remove them from my head but i need a plan.I'm still fighting against these shadows and negativity i still can be happy and smile to you but when a bad situation comes i need to remain calm or something worst can happen...


I'm only survivor who is finishing this last mission calm music helps me alot than other.I still ask my self is this a dream or reality I'll find true answer at end.There's a still chance to remove this negativity from me and finish this mission ONCE AND FOR ALL!


That is for now i hope you everypony could read this and understand Thank You for reading this I'll see you soon and Bye for now Love from Lieutenant Blu3  Lλmbd4 peace out everypony....

Songs that Helps me:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScdEkc…
www.youtube.com/watch?v=zl-p3P…
www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Bs8EF…

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